Maybe this'll explain it

I haven't been able to fully articulate what I'm doing in Asia. Why am I here? Some of the reasons I had are no longer relevant and some of the reasons I've come up with don't feel quite earnest enough. I felt as though there was no real explanation, until I found this:

"It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure,

to embrace the new.

But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful.

There is more security in the adventurous and exciting,

for in movement there is life,

and in change there is power."

Alan Cohen